My 10th Scene

This scene was fun. It was for Hot House. This is where I got to meet the amazing Jimmy Durano, Christian Owens boyfriend. James Ryder my scene partner is a good looking guy with a big ol’dick. I got to fuck the shit out of him like a circus performer. I noticed when he was a bottom he is kind of like me, GREEDY. Nothing motivates me more in the bedroom when I am a top, than a dick famished greedy bottom, who ass eats cock like starving Ethiopian at a World Aid banquet.

I had no clue that James isn’t really into white boys. I have known him for a while and he likes his Latinos like the British likes there Bangers and Mash. His hole’s hunger masked any and all indications that white was not his preferred flavor. Maybe because of my dark hair and spray tan, might have thrown him off. He probably thought I could have been from Barcelona.

So I got to fuck him vanilla style and circus style where I fucked him backwards so my dick would hit his prostate. That position makes boys go nuts. I get a sick kind of pleasure out of making boys leak pre cum right before they shoot their wads. When you fuck someone like that they can’t figure out if they are cumming or going to piss on themselves.

James reminds me of a younger more tatted version of Tyler Saint (I have been with Tyler Saint) Both Tyler and James have something in common they are both big dicked guys who naturally off set prefer bottoming which makes me sad and happy at the same time. My personal view is that whoever has the bigger dick should be the top, but in these two cases I’ll make an exception, because they be hungry.

All in all it was worth the trip to the stinky city of grunge better known as the city of homeless, oh I mean San Franlesbo, oh shit San Francisco. When it comes boys who hunger you must and should feed them cock, lots of cock. Depriving them of cock is a form of neglect which by law is consider a crime of abuse. We do not want to be known as an abusive minority. So let them eat cock.

My 9th Scene (Warning Post is Honest but Lacking)

 

 

Well other than it was easy nothing good came from the scene. The scene for Adam’s website. So him being cheap he didn’t pay much. I did it out of a friendship stand point and I made a deal with him, I wanted to get fucked by CutlerX. I didn’t know CutlerX was one of Adams rotating boyfriends. As well as CutlerX didn’t know there were 12 others.  Adam started having difficulties within about 10 minutes of shooting so he comically added in Drew Vargas in the corner changing hats to fill up more time since the scene was so short.

I don’t talk to Adam anymore for several reason. I was cutting his hair and this vile person name Leland Baldwin 3^rd called. Adam knowing what Leland had done to my credit. By closing my accounts and making new ones. He was doing this because he didn’t want to exert the effort in finding people or talking to people about opening new ones. So I would have bills that would come in and not clear because I had a new account number that I didn’t know about at Wells Fargo. Adam decides to pick up the phone call right in the middle of the hair cut, I was giving him. Calling Leland honey and sweetie. The best way to describe this Leland is a skinnier and fake baked to death version of Fat Bastard from Austin Power (After he had lipo-suction done)

My theory is you are who you hang out with. So a little more info gather about Adam from people who know him. Adam as an escort and he under cuts other peoples prices not that he needs the money it’s more of an attention thing. Adam literally will sleep with anyone not lying (he lacks standards). When rooming with people he would make the living room basically into a third world hostel without asking his roommates if it was ok or not. Adam really doesn’t have the common sense to understand that if you are with someone and they have an issue with something you tend to avoid it. He goes in the opposite direction he will throw caution to the wind and fucking piss you off with no regards to you or anyone.

Even though it seems that I'm ripping on the guy, I do have respect for Adam in one regard. He is an amazing artist. Not talking about porn. I have seen his art work and its truly amazing. There is passion there, a great eye for things that are hypnotic, his use of color is insane. He knows what looks good and I will not debate on his tastes even though they aren't like mine I can respect what he does and I can enjoy what he puts out into the world visually.

What did we learn today about Adam and this situation, avoid him and it’s better to remove people like him out of your life. No matter how nice someone is to you or how talented someone may be. If someone doesn’t respect you they are basically trash and like trash it gets taken out on Tuesday.

My New Favorite Fan!

UnknownFebruary 14, 2014 at 10:51 PM

Between you and any of those porn-bloggers like str8up or thesword, I'll take your word any day of the week. I can't stand the judgmental cattiness of most of them, and when you call them on it they either delete your comment, or claim that they are being 'objective' when all they do is throw shade and pretend they are important. At least you are 100% honest with your posts.

 

 Enough Said! Happy belated Valentines Day.

xoxoox Jed

I Think I'm Turning Japanese!

So my birthday is coming up and I have been busy like a bee. Turning another year older and a little wiser has it benefits. You learn who’s important and who’s not. After talking to my amazing roommate about two funny comments two people messaged, I was like what am I going to write about? I could always write about impact of commas or specialized writing techniques to get your point across but no one that I would hang out with would want to hear about that. As well as it would be boring and take too much time away from ordering the food and planning the games for about 50 people who are attending my birthday.

I have been painting my dining room a few different colors for the big event. As well as shopping at my favorite store (Ryu Japanese Antiques and Decor) to get art work for the apartment (sad the store is closing). Now that most of the painting is done I just need to go order the cake and pick up drinks and store them away till next week. I have some really great people coming to my birthday my agent, my friends, a few of my ex-boyfriends and co-workers etc. There will be games of all sorts mainly card, guessing and video games. I am kind of a big nerd.

My roommate will probably be chasing me around taking pictures of me which I tend to avoid taking pictures of myself. I only really do it when I have a needy person on Grindr needing more or if I am in bed cuddling with someone, I’ll post it on twitter. Twitter is like Facebook for the most part. Don’t know why I was told I needed to have a twitter? Like Facebook, twitter causes so much trouble. People get mad when you are honest and only really ever wants to comment negatively on posts.  Why do we invest so much time on something that can be misinterpreted and makes us more antisocial? People feel less like they need to actually keep to their word and meet up with you if they just can text or tweet or leave a message, people are becoming more inhuman.

So me being not a very out and about social butter fly I tend to stay home and play video games and just nerd out. I kind of miss dating Mark my ex. He didn’t need to go out in the scene he actually avoided it like I do. I have ended a few relationships because they felt the needed to always dress up and go out. I am lazy and I don’t feel the need to stand and model for a bunch of drunk people at a bar. That’s where my theme of my birthday is coming from. Everyone is required to wear a tank top and basketball shorts to my birthday. If I am out, which is very rare, I am always dressed pretty well. Most people think I had been on a date and my response is nope. People don’t know the real couch potatoes that is me.  So I will be playing games and dodging the camera when I can at my party. I think it will be a pretty good time for all. I am ordering pizza and KFC because the inner fat girl inside me, likes to eat both all the time.

So other good news one of my fan who wants to spend a week with me. So for my birthday gift he is flying me first class to Aussie Land. Never been will probably post a few thing about Australia when I am over there. As well as I will be able to see my boy toy from Belgium. Kind of miss him he sends me cute pictures here and there of him and the stuff animal I gave him. I have been adding some pretty cool people into my life and taking some not so amazing people out of it too. I think the saddest one I purged was Andrew Stark I invested a lot of time and energy into him and he couldn’t return the favor. So I have been straightening up my priorities a little bit. Surprisingly I have been hanging out with a lot of straight people. Since most people when they meet me think I am straight. I blend in a little excluding the height issue, because I am 6’3”.

I love living away from West Hollywood. There is less drama and less bullshit where I am now. I can’t stand annoying people that set up websites that nitpick about everyone’s business that they have never met. As well as the scene and people who live and breathe by it. Like they have no life outside the bars. Living outside of West Hollywood is a stress relief and it allows you to look in and laugh. This allows you to point yourself into a direction that you want to go. This is much easier than being around people who will tell no you can’t do it. It is as if they want to suck you into the rut they are stuck in. These are things that I am grateful for and would have not known if I was still caught up with that crap.

Other good notes I’ll be hanging with Jake S, JP R., Marcus and a few other porn boys a few days after my bday in NYC. It’s nice to catch up and even cuddle, maybe a poke here and there. But overall since they do porn they don’t ask you the same questions people outside of porn ask. They get to know you well the real you. Sad that none of my NY peoples will be coming to my bday but I guess I can have a second bday party in NYC. Well till my next post have a good day or night.

"Spiraling"? Hmm.... I do love Milky Ways!

It’s odd that Zach, J.W. Waxner-Herman and Jon (Jame’s brother), never heard of long distance relationships. Why would two of these three people who didn’t have a personal relationship with James (Erik) Think they should comment about his and my relationship (Where would they get the idea they had that kind of insight? )

Jon his twin never met me. Jon wasn’t really ever that involved in James’s life from what I had been told. So how could he comment about me when he never traveled with James to Los Angeles? I never saw him in the hotel room with James at the Hallway Hotel or The Ramada Hotel. Not even when he was in town (Don’t get me wrong two James would have been hot.) As well as it was very interesting not seeing any of the three in my bedroom when he spent the night after he was done with clients?

 If Jon was so involved with James then why would his twin brother not get him help dealing with substance abuse or get him to stop escorting? I find it interesting that he would claim to know so much when he was never there. He doesn’t sound like caring brother to me. But if he had read what I wrote then he could just be trying to save his ass or his family’s ass making them sound better by making me sound like a liar. Nor do I care about his family because when I was with James he didn’t say anything good about them. He actually avoided talking about them in general and I didn’t bring it up because it would upset him. When you are in a relationship and if things upset the person you love you avoid those things that upset them.

As weird or strange as my relationship was with James it still was a relationship. Just because your friend at a different blog gets humiliated and you deicide to go running to his aid. That doesn’t mean what either of you say is worth two cents.  About Str8upgayporn’s writer Zach, he just keeps posting the same thing over and over and over because he has no new material and lacks the talent to make something else up. He is now relaying on his buddies from other sites. Zach gets his ex coworkers/friends to come save him.

 How am I spiraling?  My careers is bigger and better than ever so I guess I am spiraling to the top? Attacking people left and right seems to be this very pathetic tactic to increase your readership; as they attempted it with Michael Lucas. It didn’t work and will never work! People want what they want and regardless of what you say and what they publicly say, Zach and company are behind their computers jacking off to it.

So keep posting nasty and childish drivel. Clearly you are attempting to hurt my career. Good luck with that. You are failing again but thanks for the publicity, my readership just doubled. 

Tattoos are one of my favorite forms of art.

There are many pros and cons to having tattoos. Lets start off with  the cons since its always better to finish on a good note. People who get tattoos and do not keep up  their body when they got the tattoo could encounter morphed distortions of the way the tattoo looks. For example if you're hefty and loose the weight your tattoo might look like a poster on the wall where the tape has let go and it only 50percent visible by the rolls that are now there, since the skin is not longer taught. Also if your tattoos are not well planned out you might look like a fool with just random shit all over your body making no sense, this makes you visually less desirable dated tattoo or cliché is sign that you are not creative. When seen  with cliché tattoo, you might be judged as slightly boring, dumb or uncreative. The wrong sizes of tattoos (little tattoos on large pieces of skin) on you body  look feminine when your a male. This harkens something to the past. Reminiscent of  the 80's and early 90's again two decades that are kind of forgettable (I will say The Spice Girls are still one of my guilty pleasures). Prison tattoo well the common ones that are bland and boring just makes the population clutch there purses or think your going to kill or rape them. So before letting bubba tat you up make sure you get visual references before there's any ink to skin. I can go on but, hell no one like bad body art and most people who have it regret it.

So the pros to getting tattoos. A well placed and thought out tattoo gives you personality and sets you apart from the rest of your peers. Having good ink done makes people look at you like your creative and have a eye for talented people and good art work. People look at good tattoos like people do when they look at masterpieces in museums. The only difference is that you can touch this art if the person will let you. When someone notices a person with good ink and they haven't met or know anything about them they might start to think is this person mysterious and possible has a dirty or adventurous side. Yes having a well worked out body adds to the art itself because the art is only as good as the canvas it is on. With good ink you are allowed to show off your personality and it also gives a view and little insight of what kind of person you are. Tattoos can show off what you are into and things you enjoy. Tattoo allows the wearer to tell people about themselves without even opening their mouths. Good tattoo give character and is an easy conversation starter with completely strangers.

My personal interest in them are I think amazing and hot and they are a huge turn on. There is something makes me think about a rugged man working on your house all sweaty and dirty ripping off his shirt to wipe the sweat off his face. Walks up to you with a raging hard-on one bending you over the kitchen table and using you like a rag doll. Oh the fantasies I have had and will have.

My 8th Scene (Behind the Dildo-labara)

Wow, where to start with this one? Doing a scene with Justin Beal made me feel like Matt Damon. Take a close look at the photos and decide for yourself. Titan really doesn’t tell you who you are working with anymore because if they did you probably would cancel the scene. The list of annoying things I had to deal with onset just went on and on. Justin Beal is not attractive to me, he reminds me of a gay version of Quagmire off of family guy. He had no body to speak of; it was like fucking a 40 year old child with body hair. And he complained about everything.  The crew asked me if I’d bottom in the scene to make it versatile. I lied and said I was not prepared to bottom.  Every morning I clean out it feels good. To feel fresh down there is better than a trip to Whole Foods. The reason why they asked me if I could bottom was because Justin (every 30 seconds) bitched and complained about my dick and I was like “You’ve had bigger, bitch”, why is he complaining? That also went on and on till the end of the shoot.

There weren’t many lines in the scene but I had mine down packed and Justin didn’t understand construction lingo, so we had to keep rewording the script because he wasn’t able to remember the whole conversation. I had worked in construction since I was a kid so I knew how to ad-lib. Talking to Justin is kind of uncomfortable and puts you at an uneasy stance. Wish I could forget I had ever done this scene it was not worth the 700.00 they paid me. But Titan is a cheap ass studio and doesn’t pay shit. The way Paul directs scenes is horrible there is nothing organic and it is completely robotic, which makes the scene tend to be unbear(back)able. I am very happy I went to raw sex (which I like to call Natural Sex) so that they would never ask me to work with them again.

The Truth As I SEE It.

I am writing this post for a few reasons. Most people think celebs even porn actors are something of interest. There really isn't much of a difference. Except movie stars get paid way too much money so they can shit on a heated toilet seat. Everyone has hope dreams, goals and aspirations even porn actors. Porn actors’ lives aren't completely about sex. For the most part we lead our lives just like the rest of the population. We just have less inhibitions about sex. We (not all but most) have maintained a level of attractiveness that is sometimes considered arousing in certain situations. Some of us have issues with self-esteem and our value system where we think getting work done on our faces and butt implants and silicone injections to our cocks is going to make us more of what our followers and fans want. Not all of us but the ones who are so obsessed they leave their business and run off to do porn. They make porn their lives tend to fall apart at the seams. Leaving their friends and there family for new and more disastrous places where people pick you apart and make you worry more about what really doesn't matter and less of what does.

 

I was dating Erik Rhodes when he died. Even though I had told Adam R. at Falcon. He wrote up a statement telling the people he was still dating that half whit Ricardo when he passed. Which was quite upsetting when you read something like that. I wasn't there when he died but I have slowly gotten information here or there and I don't know what is true or what is not. From what I know of his actions this is probably what actually went down. There are rumors that Erik was escorting (which we all know he did and won awards for) and doing a three way with Samuel Colt and there were drugs involved. Erik was taking these kind of drugs when I was dating him HGH, Steroids, Heroine, Meth, G, and a number of different very powerful prescription pills. From my knowledge I was the only one who ever got him to throw drugs away. He tried to shoot up in front of me. Before he pushed the plunger down he turned and looked at me. I had the look of sadness in my face. He looked like a pit-bull puppy and gave me puppy eyes like he knew he did something bad. He said why, do you make me feel so bad about this. My response was you do drug when you are not happy and when you want the pain to go away. Why would you need that with me? I told him I loved him and he didn't need to be anything other than himself with me. This was at the Ramada in West Hollywood. He flushed tons of drugs down the toilet and about 3.5 ounces of meth.

 

 

Erik (James) was a wonderful person sweet and adorable yes even for his giant size. He loved to be the little spoon and be cuddled. He would hold your hand and snuggle after he places your leg up and over his hip making you look like a spider monkey that got attached to him. James had a serious problem with drug spurred on form family problems and from the porn industry. He loved to talk about you trying to avoid talking about himself. He no longer thought people want to know him as James, just Erik a side of him that was so out there that people only knew that part about him. I got to know a side of him very few if anyone knew. He was a big guy before he got into porn but that was still not enough for the industry he could never satisfy them, a lot like how he felt about his family life, which he completely internalized. His two biggest reason for doing drugs was Porn and his Family.

 

People need to know there are soul behind what they fantasize about not just cock or ass starved sex fiends. People tend to only want to talk to porn actors about sex and not what you think outside of porn. The Industry tell you to say nothing but nice things which tend to be lies, to make people like you, but why? It was shown that 80% of all comments left on Facebook are negative! We as a culture love to tear each other down and for what. Hell I have done it a lot. I do it with humorous ways or in frustration because people don't make things easy for each other and revenge sometimes feels so much better in the immediate moment and you don't look at the long term. We as people look at ways of how we can pass on our pain to others. The reason for this is because we don't want to wallow in our own misery alone. Zach the asshole form Str8upgayporn is a perfect example of a miserable person that does this exact thing.

 

Unlike him I give my honest opinion I don't alter other peoples words or thought to make a head line. He doesn't possess that kind of talent that is why his is what he is. I hate Bruno B. with a passion for the shit he put me in and I hate Falcon for allowing a person to continue being a sack of shit and paying him just because they like his husband. Both Bruno and his husband are sick and twisted. Steve and Bruno stated in a tweet last year to look out that they will be hiring ethnic actors first and then the white ones later. Regardless that you write in you submission form saying you are not into certain kinds of guys they will pair you with what you are not attracted too. If you complain or throw a fit they will 86 you and you never work for them again. They put that pressure on you because you don't want to lose a job. So you go along with it, even if you have a problem. So what do you do to rid yourself of the pain? You might take drug or drink or even kill yourself, because you feel trapped?

 

Bruno and Steve since working with Falcon has turned the All American look Studio to basically the condom version of SX Video. Even SX will have a good looking guy here and there but its more of a fluke.  Even though most of their customers want to see white guys they are bound and determined to run that studio even farther into the ground, offering the opposite. They aren't scolded because the parent company can throw cash left and right saving their asses. Even the awards are a huge joke because they aren't based on sales it based on blogs and most of the blogs are run by their friends.  So talentless people will win awards because they either have fucked a blogger or are/have slept with the director/s to get more attention.

This is a sick continuous cycle will go on and on. The funny thing is the public doesn't have a clue. For example Hookie Award winner Tate Ryder didn't win MR. Los Angeles because he was the most popular he won because of Chi-Chi gave it to him. He gave it to him because he was going to be working with him in FL on set. Nothing is fair in this industry actor’s use to make a killing and tons of money. Not anymore and that sad. Because anyone with a camera can do porn. Doesn't matter if they are attractive or not. Quality is no longer important. We as a society want quantity and we have no problem throwing anything and everything away for the newest thing. I know of several porn boys who have taken their lives because they were thrown away. They were promised things and molded into what they were told to be and then tossed aside when they were finished with them. It is this kind of bull shit that makes porn actors (that don’t brown nose) not trust anyone.

 

Porn actors are not superheroes. Most tops can’t keep it up so they inject their dicks with Tri-mix or use Viagra. Most the time scenes are awful and very few are good. You get paired with annoying people and sometimes with amazing people. Porn is not glamorous it’s actually kind of tragic. No one really wants to talk about the truth and when you do you get bashed for it or swept under the rug. People are horrible at their best for the most part in the industry. To name a few amazing people I got to work that you don't see in the video that are behind the camera are Adam Killian, Jake Steele, Chris Crisco, Rusty Ford, Brian Mills, and Jasun Marks. People that you are happy to see when you’re on set because they make you laugh or take care of you when you are upset or just need a hug.

 

Porn actors aren't perfect And they don't claim to be, some actually think they are god’s gift to mankind of but they tend to be miserable people. I am not perfect I have emotions and problems just like the rest of the human race. I just don't handle my issues like everyone else. Where they just accept that life is shit and go on with their lives. I fight back with words because I don't settle for being abused like the rest of the world has become accustom to. I am not heartless but I am one huge ass hole when you cross me. I don't have a filter nor do I want one. So people can’t confuse the passion or the pain in what I feel or say. I have a right to think unobstructed by whomever wants to control an outcome they can go fuck themselves. I am not a CLONE I will not conform to what I have been told to conform to. It’s not in my nature. I have lost loved ones from the fact they weren't strong enough to just say no, to drug and other people wills.

 

So asshole like the writer from Manhunt Daily, Str8upgayporn and their gaggle of lonely miserable followers can kiss my ass. You may write shit about me and I will state this again, you are faceless and you are nobodies. I have a face and a voice and when you’re long gone and sitting on the patio of the Mongoliod-convalescent wing and your shitty comments will be gone too, people will know who I am and there will be proof that lives on that defies your articles and pisses on you work and lack of work in some cases. Instead of being like herpes on the face of the earth, why not work with the people, instead you like to tear them apart. Get the answer or interviews from the actors themselves and not fabricate lies and crap stories up to get yourselves attention. Truth rings much stronger than fabricated lies. Things might change and make life easier and less of a headache for the ones you so stalk form studio to studio.

 

Str8upgayporn Mongaloid Mary Strikes Again With He/She/It's Peons

After research who the hell you are. I must admit you are famous after all. I found this picture of you trying to get into the porn awards, but American Horror Story offered you a job instead. But clearly the job did not include writing.

One would think if you're going to start to quote someone the person would actually use the entire wording. Not with this special needs idiot, he'll cut and chop up everything and anything to make himself sound clever. Which if you're comparing him to a terd in the toilet I think the terd still wins for being more amusing. The terd and him do have one thing in common they are both shit. So I responded to some of the post not all only one that humored me and would allow me to give insight back to the poster. "Now I can see why Michael Lucas got your ass canned from The Sword"(I would have done the exact same thing! Your a nasty little person that lives in long beach who hates his life because he is surrounded by lesbians that are more of a man then you ever could be.) You are truly a piece of shit. I defended your ass before on my blog. WOW!

With Zach's Peons that obviously are his buds, who write in because his membership is low to help save his job (Probably going to get fired again YAY). It's quite amusing that anyone who comments on that blog could hold down a job. Which leads me to believe that all his comments come form the same person and that is himself (Zach).

Trying to equate going to a porn awards show with being publicly recognizable and being in touch with the industry is pathetic. If that were the case then the parking valets and the janitorial crew who were present (which is probably how You got in and you look homeless Zach) are porn experts.

People like myself have better things to do than hang with trashy bloggers (not all are but certainly you are that's why you got canned) that attend the awards shows to they can finally cum in their pants because they are close to people that are actually attractive (which in their personal lives never happens without paying for It.... you hang out with drag queens in Long Beach, because they take pity on you and they know your a lonely miserable person). Lets discuss the reason why you started writing about porn besides the fact you wanted to be around men you'd never be able to get naturally. The real reason is your lonely and in life no one pays any attention to you or notices you. The fact is you're so basic wall paper more interesting then you are.

Just a few comments to your peanut gallery of the pathetic:

NG212 You couldn't watch any of my films because Lucas Entertainment does not accept food stamps as payment. Your opinion means nothing to me.

Dewitt2it Umm...more like "De-Twitt-bull shit"

GN just because Marc Dylan doesn't want to fuck you doesn't mean he's a racist. I'm sure no one else within your race will fuck you either. So I agree with him hot is hot and your not so I wouldn't fuck you either or the rest of the world matter of fact. Well maybe the Blogger would or Josh Chicago.

Dutch Courage, just because the court ordered you to see a shrink doesn't mean everyone has to.

Cosmic: stop diddling your greasy mangina long enough to pay attention to what is being said and you will know the answer. but first wipe down your keyboard because the cyber-stench coming from your bedroom wreaks

Josh Chicago (AKA my #1 fan) In the end Josh no one cares about you, not even your mother! Remember she had to tie a pork chop around your neck so the dog would play with you!)....Oh and you say I am undesired you are funny. You obviously don't read anything but this one website. I know you didn't get past a third grade education but normally I wouldn't hold it against you but, I will this time. Oh and in your eyes I am a star because you can't seem to not talk about me your always talking about me so glad I can take you time up now, Peon I normally wouldn't say this but I think its cute you hate worshiping me (just don't touch me ugly is hard to scrub off), that's why your posts are so angry. Now get on you knees and do what you do best grovel to your betters. Just not in front of me looking at you might make me vomit and I kind of want to gain weight not lose it.

Oh attack LucasEnt all you want but they will be laughing all the way to the bank with all the money that you guys spend on watching it. You'll be the first to throw the stone but you're also the first to watch it and jack off to it. A lot like the Republican party, try to destroy something and make it taboo but behind close doors they do what they renounce publicly (you're sad and very pathetic organisms)

Just always know Zach (the pathetic) you'll never really be anything more than some special needs writer behind a desk (you kind of look like a sickly abortion, form a mother that looks like a crack head which, is trying to climb back into your mother womb because you know she'd never hold or love you) that no one will remember or care about in 2 years. That's right no matter what you write or say doesn't really effect me see I am not  weak and spineless like you are and your little peons who defend you because you're not man/women/it enough to do it on your own.