Disappointment for Zach LOL!

I'll be keeping my blog up! As well as it will allow me to make fun of Str8upgayporn blogger Zach. Making sure we all can laugh at him as he tries to validate himself and his worthless opinions. Stay tuned. Sorry Zach, shit like you makes it way to easy to get a cheap laugh in. Well can't say cheap because your free and still no one will fuck you!

I am over it!

I have no motivation or reason to continue this blog. Hence forth I will no longer be blogging its a waste of my time. Good bye and good luck!

My 16th Scene Vito Gallo

 

Well, overall it was a good scene. There were only two glitches, but they were significant and almost became a deal breaker. Other than that it was all ok, I guess.

This scene was my third shoot for Lucas Entertainment. It came out as the second video and it took them over a year to release it. I had to remind them and then a few days later they put it on the website.  (Hmmm Interesting.)

One thing that I really don’t like is when studios require you to get a spray tan and don’t pay you for it. (So NOT Hollywood professional!) Over a period of time the art department hated the spray tan so I eventually got to be my usual porcelain white again.

The first glitch was that Vito and I simply wanted to fuck. I wanted Vito to take his huge veiny Italian cock and pull a Hate Fuck Ass Rape and shoot a huge load of man butter onto my English muffins. But the scene writers had other plans. They wanted a boring ass love scene. Really? It was a total letdown for both of us.

While filming we kept being told to slow down and make love. Don’t you have to know someone for a period of time and get to know them before you start developing feelings for them? The only info I had on this guy was that he is an escort, slightly cray cray and that he has a massive wang.

I am not into making love with someone who I have no feelings for. It’s really hard for someone who is enjoying dick the way I do, to alter the way I go about devouring it. Which I always tend to love getting slammed by it till I am black and blue. To slow a pace down when a faster pace feels better is what I like to call dick abuse. On top of that they kept telling me to say I love you to Vito, when I really just wanted to scream fuck me you pig.

 I personally don’t say I love that until I have an amazing connection with someone or their dick. So all I could do is say baby instead of what they were asking me to say. Trust me when you’re told like 15 times to say I love you, you can end up grinding your teeth with frustration. Vito for the most part has an amazing dick it has a great length and girth to it. 

The second issue was that Vito was freaking the fuck out about not being able to cum within five minutes of when he wanted to cum. I wish all the guys I have ever hooked up with had this issue because then I probably would have asked them to stay longer. Or on the other hand, it would have not been a onetime thing (bummer).

Which sometimes it takes porn boys up to three hours to cum, honestly five minutes is not an issue that he made it out to be. (Especially when you are in a KLM bathroom stall at the Amsterdam airport. Which my experience was well over two hours in the stall. ) As I lay there and look at Chris and Adam with big eyes and cringed at the hissy fit he was throwing.

Pondering G4P

I was recently asked to comment on this!

If I could ask for a topic to be addressed in an upcoming blog post, I'd love to hear your take on G4P actors. For me, I actually hate it when sites like Chaos Men stress how 'straight' the guys are in an effort to make them more attractive. I had to unfollow one porn actor on Twitter because he just got too adamant about how straight he is- never mind that he's on Sketchy Sex taking dozens of loads in both holes. But I'm curious as to what you think- not just filming with them, but also how they impact the gay porn industry. If, you know, you're taking requests, lol....
 

So this is my response.
 

So here is what I think. Unless your actually get into gay sex you should not be doing gay porn. For example Andrew Stark really likes gay sex. He just isn’t into having a relationship with a guy. Most straight men who do gay porn are pretty but they are so uncomfortable the scenes the scenes turn out horrid. Best example is Leo Giamani. I think he is super fucking hot but he is horrid to watch. Not to mention that he owes studios money. He would ask for a huge amount upfront to do a scene and then bail and never show up. Kind of a huge douche bag but hey, straight guys think they can get away with tons of shit. Not to mention he gave the owner of a studios info out to a debt collector. So the debt collector is harassing the wrong person.

A lot of straight men go into gay porn because gay porn pays more than straight porn for the male actors. As well as gay porn studios treats men better then straight porn studios. But G4P actors don’t treat gays usually any better than they did before. So why do we use them? Is there any benefit to them being around? Nothing really is coming to mind. Unless I wanted to do something that doesn’t involve gay people or a bar. Again this doesn’t not apply to all but the majority it does. I have met enough to know they are as useful to my existence as herpes is. I don’t have herpes but comparing them to it is easy. I don’t have it or need it just like I don’t have straight people in my life and I sure as hell don’t need them either.

So as gay men yes the doing a straight guy can be hot (but it is not a turn on for me though). We, should look at where the money is going. Do they support the gay community? NO! Do they pay our bills? NO! Do they help us out in any actually productive way? NO! (And don’t think for a second helping you cum is a productive sense) So why should we as a gay community help them out. They don’t do anything for us but they do just take and take. So they are in a sense leeches. This doesn’t mean all of them are but for the most part the majority are. How often do you see them in our community just hanging out with us? Rare and usually it’s when they are getting paid to do so. So again why should we support people like that?

So it is time to actually give back to the gay community. As viewers and as performers. I volunteer and go out of my way to do fundraisers that give back. What as a gay man have you done for your community lately? Think outside the box and try to have it not involve the usual crap that people in our society are judged upon!

My 15th Scene

So this scene is with Andrew Stark. (No relation to the infamous family that got slaughtered on Game of Thrones.) Although during most of the scene he impaled me with his nine inch dagger and slapped my pink and yielding taint.   The scene was for Kings of New York season 2. It was with Reichen L. he was the guest celeb. It was fun to work with Andrew Stark, he is easy to work with, very considerate and an overall good guy. I wanted to ask him “so what’s a nice Jewish boy like you doing a scene in a place like this” (Yes I know he’s not Jewish but I wanted to ask anyway.)  Obviously his good looks and dick of death was the answer to my question. If you can’t marry it you might as well film it fucking yours truly! Too bad Andrew’s straight I thought while grunting and moaning with each long pounding stroke that entered my soon to be wrecked man hole. Nothing says I love you more then, when you have been hate fucked till your ass ends up being gaped by, all the cock trashing that went on.

 

The scene ended up be long because Riechen, couldn’t remember his line which was kind of annoying, because he’s a professional actor. But when it came to Andrew and my lines we got them down pat. Joking all the way through the day with most of our interaction. If he wasn’t straight I would have not minded dating him or just dating his big fat cock. Straight men tend to not to be in the right mindset to date a gay boy. Even though we are better at taking dick at both ends then whiny I am not that kind of girl chicks. Not to mention when a guy has, a fat pole men tend to want to reach the base of the shaft often and as much as possible as GREED allows!

Andrew is a great lay. Andrew's dick is a looker, very tasty and a good skewer. Needless to say I would hop on pop if he was down for it. Because God knows Sam I am, his dick is better than green eggs and ham. So there were three cum shots in the scene two of mine and one of his. A professional bottom like myself can keep taking dick even after cumming. Which is nice because my GREED kicks in and I still want MORE. This is surprisingly a rare occurrence for me because most guys are not able to satisfy the power bottom in me. Most men I encounter are not of the length or girth that will satisfy me. Or some sad situation which they can’t last more than five to ten minutes fucking at the pace and intensity I require. I am what one would call a marathon man.

Once the scene was over we became closer friends. Andrew and I have done a few web cam shows and TV shows together. I No longer really talk to him, but on the rare occasion if we have gig for each other.  The reason for this was, because I was making more of an effort at being a friend then he was. If he decided to go fully gay not for pay I wouldn’t mind wrangling that monster in his shorts on a twice a day basis or all if the time allows it.

 

Stupidity + Ego + Drugs = Robbie

 So last the White Party just happened at it was kind of sad and pathetic. Same old people going to it were aged Circuit queens and twinks for the most part having the same thing in common, being drugged out. There was a select few 100 people who were sober and they were working white party as security they are in program. I was hired as one of the ES models. Which was ok until I met this worthless excuse for a human (Robbie).

So what can I tell you about him? First of all he is a drug addict. The sign that he was on drugs were clear as day. The jaw twitching and staring like he was going to kill someone was all sign of using G. Not to mention that he mentioned on the Ferris wheel that we all should get high. In the parking lot where he was asked if he was still rolling and he confirmed said yes. So I was curious about his balding because he was 95% of the time wearing a baseball cap to hide his receding hair line. A friend told me that it probably from the mass amounts of drug or steroids he was consuming.

Secondly Robbie is a thief. We were working the first night and he ended up stealing a crap ton of energy drinks and water so he had mixers for the drugs he was taking. When confronted about it he said he was hungry. Stupid Alter, how does liquid justify fixing your hunger problem? He also ended up stealing swimwear from the sponsors. Basically he is a lowlife and pretty annoying. Broke down worth pile of shit that people just forget about.

Thirdly he decided to tell some of his coworkers that he was an Alpha. I laughed as I was told this. The reason he said he was an Alpha was because he only fucks the grisliest twinks. The twinks have to be so screaming that he are bursting into flames, that’s how gay. He was caught with some of the ugliest LESBOYS around. When the rest of the crew caught him with the LESBOYS, he became a laughing stalk. When the word "Alpha" came to mind this picture went hand and hand with Robbie a perfect analogy.

Fourth he was so thwacked out of his mind he was never on time. When told to hurry up and change it took him five times longer than any other person. He also would disappear randomly and often when I followed him he was either with the LESBOYS or doing bumps of coke.

Fifth he couldn’t dance too, all he did was flex. He is pathetic, everyone was switching out and letting other people have the front stage. He was an ass hole and wouldn’t move from the spot. Flexing and flexing was all this untalented douche bag could do. His ego was a joke he could not give you an answer without throwing a hissy fit and excuse why he wouldn’t talk to you. Which was funny because a complete stranger was just trying to be nice and talk to him and Robbie had a fit.

So when he was losing his job he would attempt to kiss everyone’s ass and it was painful to watch the other model look away giving you big eyes like they wanted to strangle him. He ended up pissing and annoying everyone in the end. So if you want to see this Sac of shit he stands and poses at Fubar in West Hollywood. He has no other job because he can keep one.

My 14th Scene Live Video

The scene was with Mitch Vaughn. I was told I was going to be the top in an email and then I ended up being the bottom because the director lied. This post is going to be short and sweet. Mitch is a good guy he just recently moved from Vegas to LA, He is a nice enough guy on set as he is off set. He has a very yummy pink hole and it was great to eat. The live video was shot quickly and we all got the hell out of there as soon as possible because everyone was tired and they had been shooting a scene prior. That’s all I can say about it. I saw him as White Party 2014 and He seemed to be Enjoying himself.

Arrogance and Fear

“HOW DARE HE ASSUME I WOULD AUTOMATICALLY BLOG ABOUT HIM?” How rude of that pimpled, hipster want to be, I am going to blog about him!

I haven’t been rubbed the wrong way in a while by someone. I know I did tell him I wouldn’t blog about him last night at work but hell why not? So I first came across Mr. 2013 international hooker of the year about two years ago and thought, he is kind of cute. Which I thought was odd because I normally stay away very far from blonds because I am normally not attracted to them. Then he had commented on something of mine and thought oh he was a cool guy. So things were looking pretty ok. Then, I started my blog, which in the beginning he liked. Then he switched his opinion because I was attacking Bruno on my blog. I didn’t have a problem with this. Everyone has right to their own opinion and thoughts.

So, last night I ended up actually meeting Mr. 2013 International Male Hooker, in person for the first time.  I was working and he came up to me and we both knew who each other was instantly. We were chatting and things were ok. So visually right off the bat, I was kind of stunned. I had told him that I thought he would be a lot shorter then he actually was. He is actually pretty tall. While we were working together we were being chatty and bitching about some of the idiot go-go dancers. So after dancing about an hour I got down. Soon after he followed, my lead he had only been up for about 30 minutes.

So in the changing room I got a much better look at him. There was a lot more, light in the changing room. I noticed a few things about him right away.  In my head I wanted to do was retract thinking about him sexually. The first thing I noticed was so endless number of zits he had. I had asked him, if he was on a cycle of steroids. His response was that he is winding down form a current cycle. He was covered in zits ranging from small to giant sized sores from front to back (a countless amount, it kind of freaked me out a little bit). The second thing was in my head, was that if he had been on steroids, I would expect a more developed chest and body. He had a boy body with a lumberjack face. Then I thought to myself he must be the most photo shopped person on the internet.

 

He was having issues with his cock ring and he asked me if I had one, I didn’t. I told him if his pubic hair was getting pulled out, why wouldn’t he just trim his pubes? His response was he couldn’t his pubes had to be long for his clients. Then conversation got bounced around, because other go-goes would change up the topic of conversation. Somehow being in the army got brought up. He said he saluted me for my service. I made a joke about him not saluting me because his dick wasn’t hard. His reply was that he didn’t think he had anything left because clients had drained him.

Time passed and we chatted some more here and there. When he first moved to LA he started the off ball rolling at being a slut. What I was told and what he confirmed that he was a major whore right off the bat, which nothing is wrong with that. Kicking things off with fisting my buddy. I guess he had a bad experience with me buddy. From what I know of my bud, if you’re a douche to him he doesn’t act very friendly. So chatting continued and he started talking more about random stuff. He started talking about this sex party he was going to after work. Having lived in Los Angeles for 8 plus years, I pretty much know who throws the sex parties in this town. I personally don’t go to sex parties because you never know who is going to be there and that freaks me the fuck out. He complained about having to stay the longer shift since he didn’t show up on time and that sex party was all that he could think of.

So I asked what area it was in so I could narrow who was the host of the party. I have saved some friends from crazies and crazy situations before involving sex parties. He started being an ass and saying it was private and that he wasn’t going to tell me. I had told him, it wasn’t my scene, I just wanted to know who was throwing it, might save him a headache or two. Again he came back with a smart ass comment and said that he wasn’t going to tell me anything about the party because, he might end up on my blog. I said something about he wouldn’t end up on it because we hadn’t done a scene together. So I guess I lied because here he is.

Work ended and I headed home. I was way to fucking tired, so I got home and took a shower and went to bed. I woke up at 6:30am kind of annoyed at him. I was being nice and friendly and he had been a dick. So I started to think about what I knew about the whole situation that occurred. He had mentioned that he didn’t want to walk to the party so he might “Uber” (taxi) it there.  So knowing what I know of the sex parties within walking distance I narrowed the field.

Thought Bubble in 3.2.1

Then I was like why wouldn’t he want to tell me? Then realized he was clearly afraid of it ending up on my blog. So thinking about it some more I kind came to the conclusion that it had to be a possibility of a few things. Examples included: a TWEAKER sex party, or a BAREBACK sex party or maybe a combo of the two. Since the area he could walk to from where he was at, hosted a lot of those. Not to mention his fear of someone knowing whose party he was going to. The thought of him getting put into a sling and getting used was laughable and cringe worthy. Unless he was lying about his dick not working. So letting my imagination run with it and the twisted sense of humor. My thoughts ran to Treasure Island Media movies references like the movie “Slammed” and “Dawson’s 50 load weekend.” Since I don’t know him very well and I enjoy speculating the most horrific speculations are my favorite. I asked him if he was a sex addict. He didn’t answer my question. He did basically confirmed that he was a sex addict. By saying he doesn’t think that there was such a thing as a sex addict. I rolled my eyes and thought why did I bother being friendly to this jackass all night long.

And we are back in 3.2.1

This info would kind of ruin his image of being a good boy in porn. If it true or not I don’t really care. At this point it was a waste of my time and energy trying to be nice to an asshole. I had given him info about how things worked at work. I was trying to be a nice guy and he ended up being full of himself the ego was inflated. I guess there is a truth to the saying, “If you are ugly on the inside it will show on the outside”.

Quality Porn People

This is a list of people that I enjoy and like from porn that I actually have met. As well as the reasons I like them.

Adam Killian: Sweet, funny, full of surprises, he is a colorful character or should I say rhinestone? He is hardworking and amazing in bed. I enjoy being around a lot kind of a mentor of mine. He tells me I impress him a lot.

Brandon Jensen: He is a sweet guy and honest. When you ask him for something he is on that shit. I have nothing bad to say about him. Just wish he worked for a better porn studio instead of the shady one he currently works for.

Jake Steel: Sweet, honest, caring, hardworking and good in bed. Just a good all-around guy nothing bad to say about him.

Seth Fornea/Jared LeBlanc: This duo only one does non sex porn but, I really enjoy both of them they are sweet and protective and that’s always a plus. I miss this duo.

Jonathan Agassi: OMG he a pervert and I think that’s part of his charm. He is a very colorful character. I enjoy the sober part when we hung out he is a real wild man. Sex with him is very intense.

 Tanner Wayne: I just like him. He is easy to be around and he fibs about his age which is kind of hilarious. Great fuck and hungry hole.

Johnny Ryder: Shared a room with him at a hotel in CA when a movie was being shot. He was very nice to me and easy to talk to.

Lucky Daniels: Known Lucky for a long time I enjoyed him a lot and he is a very sweet guy. Not much else I can say.

Dario Beck: Sweet, great in bed, caring, soft spoken, humble and shy. There are tons of things I could say about Dario the list goes on and on. I asked him to marry me. Sad thing is I don’t have a bank account that would make him happy so he declined my offer.

Donny Wright: Amazing in bed, sweet and a great guy. Wish he didn’t do drugs it might have lasted between the both of us he disappear on me which freaked me out.

 

Jimmy Durano: Love him. He is sweet, kind, soft spoken, smart, patient and he’s a hard worker. Having a big dick is a plus too I got too suck on it, yay.

James Ryder: Funny guy, nice, good in bed and I get to see him around town here and there when I am at work. Always comes out and chats and introduces me to his new boy friends.

Hot Rod: he is nice, quiet, and soft spoken, a colorful character and has massive dick poppers are a must with him.

Byron Saint: I knew him before he did porn. Sweet guy well-mannered and thinks the same way I do. Honest and caring and a game nerd like me. He does have a hungry hole.

Ali Steele: Hot and his a massive dick pig not to mention he is a nice guy.

Draven Torres: Sweet, cuddly, suitcase size, nice, caring, submissive the list goes on and on.  He is good peoples. Don’t know about the pee thing though.

Marcus Iasaacs: Greedy bottom, nice guy only complaint is that he doesn’t call or pick up the phone when he tells you to keep in touch with him.

Brad Kalvo: Sweet, nice, thoughtful, hardworking, generous, sassy, and he thinks about 99% of what I think just doesn’t say it like I do. He’s funny, easy to talk to and chill out with.

Tommy Defendi: He is a cool guy I enjoyed having dinner with him. We shot the shit for a while at a dinner when I was waiting for Boomer to get home from a meeting. Just a normal cigarette smoking overly comfortable with his sexuality kind of guy. He is a good one to keep around.

Brian Mills: Sweet guy, takes care of you and treats right. Miss him, wish he stuck around longer.

Jasun Marks: Sweet guy, honest, funny, he is a colorful character and words form his own mouth he is a dick pig. Who doesn’t love a dick pig?

My 13th Scene “Str8 Boy”

 

Well now you might know Hayden Richards as the gay for pay porn boy who was caught snorting coke on a pride float.  Well that’s who my scene partner was for Hot House. Personally I can’t tell you if he was a nice guy or not. He didn’t carry a conversations nor comment on anything anyone said unless it pertained to him. It was a BLAH scene. We had to stop every three minutes because he would lose his boner. He said I gave good head. Other than that much didn’t come out of his mouth. Rating wise it wasn’t the worst sex I have ever had, but it was far from the mediocre sex I have had too.

I really don’t know why straight guys get into porn if they can’t keep it up. Honestly if you are not getting the shot into your dick to keep it up then you really just need to bottom in the scene. Do I find him attractive, no? That’s just my opinion. The scene over all was pretty blah from the photographer they used. By the way if you run into him and he tell you to smile and he knows you are pissed and you really don’t want to smile. Grab that dam camera and smash the fuck out of it. Then tell him with love from JED. He has to be one of the most annoying photographers I have ever worked with. After telling him I don’t want to show my hole he would nag and nag until very unpleasant thought would run through your head. Those thoughts if acted out would land you in prison. To the food they fed you if they got you food, it usually was fruit snack or from a cheap ass delivery joint.

The only real enjoyment I got out of shooting with Hot House was it got to hang out with the build crew weird but nice guys and Jimmy Durano. Occasionally  when not on set I would get a hot fuck before or after the scene with one, two, or three of the locals.

Lemmings LOL

I was sitting down and thinking about some funny shit when a few things popped out of nowhere. Those few things are what I decided to write about. It sometimes helps to expound on paper then it does in thought. Do know, I am a nice person and very kind when I am shown respect, but there are two sides of a coin. I do like coming across as bitter, jaded, cynical and mean. The times when I am that way, is like therapy for me. So let’s call this post, therapy time. I hope you enjoy it because when people are honest and funny you can’t really go to wrong. So this post is kind of attacking a group of stupid people.  A very specific group of horrible people.

So, I was voted by some half rate blog a while back, that I had the worst twitter or I shouldn’t have a twitter account. Not naming any names but that’s kind of funny to think that a halfwit blogger is going to comment on the value of my Twitter. There is a reason why I don’t let just anyone read it, because rejects like this unnamed blogger will have more material to use because he cannot come up with anything original of his own. Then I started to think well he has these supporters that just are bitter faggots and usually agree with him regardless if what he says is true or not.

 I have these very kind words for those faggots. “Go run off a cliff like a lemming, because god knows you are better off dead than alive!” The reason why I say these kind words are plain and simple you follow a pathetic excuses for a human that, BETRAYS all that he stands for. Example: Taking a pic, while being buddy-buddy with Michael Lucas which, he has basically sworn to try to destroy. He will say anything he possibly can to draw negative attention. Even if there is rave attention in a positive sense he will avoid talking about it. Kind of reminds me of FOX NEWS (Ran by halfwits and full of lies with a bunch of retarded, backwoods followers) Now, now Lemmings don’t get your panties in a twist. I will reconfirm you are fucking IDIOTS. I know truth is hard for you to understand since you have been reading his blog, I mean, a weak and lame excuse for a blog, for a bit too long.

This is not a Self Help posting because I truly hope you find that cliff. Me showing the error of your ways/ there being no point to your existence, that you might find that cliff sooner. Myself an intelligent being, would not expect that the pathetic blogger, would post this on his blog.  The reason why, is he does not like to accept that, he is a single cell organism. He has no talent, he is not creative and he’s a leach of sorts. So when he reads something that he can twist he will twist it, since lacking enough brain cells to come up with something original, this does not lie in his capabilities. As well as not being able to wipe his own ass but that’s another topic. So maybe, pointing out that he doesn’t post things against himself, might make him post it. Honestly he probably won’t so don’t get your hopes up. When shit is mentioned about him he just avoids it or deletes it. Now Lemmings, as you are searching for that cliff remember higher the cliff, surer that you won’t survive. But hell if you don’t live near cliffs then a 40 story building should do the trick and if you are not in a tall city then a semi or train works just as fine. As long as the moving transportation is traveling at a fast enough speed, 72mph is a good speed.

As a reader you should really see what the content of the writer’s writing. For example if he is using pics that are not current, then you know something is up. As well if he is using the same things over and over again, to give his current post attention, then you know something is up. These are all telltale signs that he isn’t legit and you need to move on. Honesty is always the best policy and when your favorite blogger isn’t even anywhere near honest you should just stop reading. In this world there are always going to be people who will lie to you for a pay check. Since I am not getting a paycheck from this blog I have no need to lie to you. But other blogger will and do so.

My 12th scene "Dildoed"

Hmmm writing this while watching Queer as Folk this should come out as an interesting post.  This scene happened when someone cancelled the shoot and Christian Owen needed someone to fill in for him. Since I lived in LA driving to Palm Springs, made me a quick fill in. I was told to come to set at a certain time and wow that was a lie. I was stuck there for over eight hours waiting. That was a huge bore. I just wanted to shoot myself. Christian Owen is known for lying about things that have to do with shooting or porn in general. Like as in emails and text messages telling you are a top or a bottom and you find out on set you are the opposite.

So the shoot was in a rank Palm Springs clothing optional resort. The resort smelled of piss and shit, and with some very hideous trolls roaming the grounds and even with a “Do Not Enter” sign that did not stop the trolls from poking their deteriorating mugs shots on set. Alessio Romero was in three of the four scenes and he offered to be in the scene with me but my scene partner was Jimmy Durano. Alessio has this look where you just kind of want to do whatever he says when he looks at you. Jimmy is sweet and sexy but a little unknown fact is, that he drives like a grandmother which is very cute to behold.

So the scene was kind of boring. The scene had dildos and I kind of like the feeling of a hot muscle body slamming into my ass. So I am not a huge fan of toys. I will use them but not on a regular basis. But there was none of that on set, sad for me. Christian Owen after seeing me take the dildo I brought, ASSumed I was able to take a fist but that wasn’t going to happen. The highlight of the shoot was when I got to deep throat Jimmy’s fat ol’cock. Which always helps me getting close to cumming but that never ended up on film. Other than that nothing exciting happened. Hot House is kind of a lame studio to shoot since Christian decided to take the studio over. Not to say that some of the things he does aren’t kind of fun and funny while filming. It just sometimes come across like your shooting for Falcon, which if you had to be on set doing every position five times. It gets really annoying. Which includes close ups, wide shots, real sex, fake sex and fake faces you’d want go back to working retail at the local “If Only” store.

 

The Devil you know

He calls me “Momma.” But in some circles of the San Francisco underworld I am known as “Condoleezza Brown Rice.”  For those of you readers who don’t know me, I am the “awesome roommate” that Jed speaks of in earlier posts. I am honored to be his guest “ghost” writer because I wanted to give (you the fans) a little peak into the life of the rough, tumble and sometimes controversial Jed Athens.

 
First of all his name ain’t Jed but I guess you knew that. No one has ever jacked off to the birth name of any porn star. This one included. But don’t try to find out his real name. It is locked away in a secret vault in Chechnya where I adopted him for 100 thousand rubles (About 29.95 in US currency) and a crate of KY Jelly from military overstock. You see, I, Miss Condi was working as an American attaché in the city of Grozny (Russian for Horrible) (back in the day) when Jed’s older sister Basia, paid me to get him out of what she described as “this war torn hell hole” (see www.ruscapturedboys.com)

To say that Jed has “Anger issues” is to over simplify a complex study in sexual Predatory Lustful Post Traumatic Butt Syndrome PLPTBS (It’s the latest in the DSM IV). But alas the poor lad has had a rough start in life…and he’s still a little pissed. When he wasn’t dodging grenades in his homeland, he was plotting his escape to America to find his fame and fortune. He found Adult Entertainment.

At first, I was totally against his entering the porn scene. I thought it was a dangerous choice and the powers that be would eventually suck him into a meth induced coma.  Not to mention having to deal with these toxic, bitchy, venomous vamps permeating this terrain. But to my surprise, Jed has managed to stay away from drugs and alcohol and has never sucked cum, succumbed to this wicked and destructive lifestyle. He rarely goes out but when he does it’s usually dinner and a movie with close friends here in West Los Angeles. At home, he takes care of his gigantic fish tank and beautiful orchid collection. He also enjoys his mind boggling collection of vintage Japanese Kimono’s. Jed never does anything small! I guess you could say Jed is addicted to….more. Yes MORE.

Sexually and artistically, Jed HAS turned up more than one eyebrow with his superb muscle control, his rapid fire pelvic thrusts, his insatiable hunger for hot men and an Ass that becomes more Negro as the days go by. Boo-Day! Yes, baby got back and then some!

Unfortunately Jed’s razor sharp tongue gets him into trouble at times and amuses many at others. He holds back nothing and tells it like it is. I have, on more than one occasion, explained to him that truth is not always good to rub people’s faces in. But He just can’t help himself. Jed speaks his mind, sometimes at his own peril. But in a city of flakes, fakes and quakes, you can be sure of one thing: you NEVER have to guess where Jed stands and he will NEVER pretend to like you if he doesn’t.

Having said that, I want all of you to know just what a wonderful person Jed is on the inside. Beneath that rock solid exterior of pure, unadulterated “Fuck Machine” lays a heart of gold. But be careful how you handle this golden heart or you are liable to end up with a molten crown of bullion: Kinda like the mother of dragon’s bro on Game of Thrones. Bottom line; If you are lucky enough to score Jed as a friend then you’ve got a loyal friend for life and no one can ask for more than that.    CONDI

11th Scene, Got Milked? (First Fisting Scene)

So lets break a few things down before I go into this scene. I love the fact stupid blogs and annoying website like to post this video thinking its going degrade me and think its going to piss me off some how. The simple fact is besides my knees killing and wrecking /hurting Tanner's hole me this scene was fucking hilarious to shoot. So for the pee brain that think it was milk up Tanners ass you are wrong. It was a combo of J-lube, water, Crisco and anal ease thrown into a blender. Before you post as if you know everything think again, because if you post something and are incorrect it only makes you look like a twat waffle. (If you don't know what a twat waffle is Google it!)

 

As I sit back in bed as my stiches heal form mole removals, I am writing this, I start to wonder where Tanner is. I kind of miss joking and talking to him he is truly a really good guy and I miss him. He was a sweet and very cuddly person to be around off set. Let me not forget he also has an amazingly open hole. You could just talk to him and he was bluntly honest like I am but he has a filter. So all in all he would be a good friend to anyone that would meet him, you know just a good guy to be around.

So the scene was pretty funny to shoot. We experimented with how many different things and in what order could we insert up Tanners butt. So after a while the scene just went on and on. The thing that took the longest was the lube squirting out of Tanners butt. Not because of mine or Tanners fault. But because of everyone else on set and if I remember correctly that was four other people. The final take was the one used. The reason why it was the final take because it was the 12th time we filmed that shot. Every one on set was laughing so hard because each take that had been shot my facial expression got funnier and weirder as time went on. Obviously my acting skills have fooled most if not everyone who watched it. Because most people think I was grossed out or freaked out. I was having a ball on set.

 

All in all it wasn't that bad of a shoot, it just seemed to go on and on. I felt bad for Tanner's poor hole it was over used. I just wish Tanner didn't drop off the face of the earth and had stayed in contact!

My 10th Scene

This scene was fun. It was for Hot House. This is where I got to meet the amazing Jimmy Durano, Christian Owens boyfriend. James Ryder my scene partner is a good looking guy with a big ol’dick. I got to fuck the shit out of him like a circus performer. I noticed when he was a bottom he is kind of like me, GREEDY. Nothing motivates me more in the bedroom when I am a top, than a dick famished greedy bottom, who ass eats cock like starving Ethiopian at a World Aid banquet.

I had no clue that James isn’t really into white boys. I have known him for a while and he likes his Latinos like the British likes there Bangers and Mash. His hole’s hunger masked any and all indications that white was not his preferred flavor. Maybe because of my dark hair and spray tan, might have thrown him off. He probably thought I could have been from Barcelona.

So I got to fuck him vanilla style and circus style where I fucked him backwards so my dick would hit his prostate. That position makes boys go nuts. I get a sick kind of pleasure out of making boys leak pre cum right before they shoot their wads. When you fuck someone like that they can’t figure out if they are cumming or going to piss on themselves.

James reminds me of a younger more tatted version of Tyler Saint (I have been with Tyler Saint) Both Tyler and James have something in common they are both big dicked guys who naturally off set prefer bottoming which makes me sad and happy at the same time. My personal view is that whoever has the bigger dick should be the top, but in these two cases I’ll make an exception, because they be hungry.

All in all it was worth the trip to the stinky city of grunge better known as the city of homeless, oh I mean San Franlesbo, oh shit San Francisco. When it comes boys who hunger you must and should feed them cock, lots of cock. Depriving them of cock is a form of neglect which by law is consider a crime of abuse. We do not want to be known as an abusive minority. So let them eat cock.

My 9th Scene (Warning Post is Honest but Lacking)

 

 

Well other than it was easy nothing good came from the scene. The scene for Adam’s website. So him being cheap he didn’t pay much. I did it out of a friendship stand point and I made a deal with him, I wanted to get fucked by CutlerX. I didn’t know CutlerX was one of Adams rotating boyfriends. As well as CutlerX didn’t know there were 12 others.  Adam started having difficulties within about 10 minutes of shooting so he comically added in Drew Vargas in the corner changing hats to fill up more time since the scene was so short.

I don’t talk to Adam anymore for several reason. I was cutting his hair and this vile person name Leland Baldwin 3^rd called. Adam knowing what Leland had done to my credit. By closing my accounts and making new ones. He was doing this because he didn’t want to exert the effort in finding people or talking to people about opening new ones. So I would have bills that would come in and not clear because I had a new account number that I didn’t know about at Wells Fargo. Adam decides to pick up the phone call right in the middle of the hair cut, I was giving him. Calling Leland honey and sweetie. The best way to describe this Leland is a skinnier and fake baked to death version of Fat Bastard from Austin Power (After he had lipo-suction done)

My theory is you are who you hang out with. So a little more info gather about Adam from people who know him. Adam as an escort and he under cuts other peoples prices not that he needs the money it’s more of an attention thing. Adam literally will sleep with anyone not lying (he lacks standards). When rooming with people he would make the living room basically into a third world hostel without asking his roommates if it was ok or not. Adam really doesn’t have the common sense to understand that if you are with someone and they have an issue with something you tend to avoid it. He goes in the opposite direction he will throw caution to the wind and fucking piss you off with no regards to you or anyone.

Even though it seems that I'm ripping on the guy, I do have respect for Adam in one regard. He is an amazing artist. Not talking about porn. I have seen his art work and its truly amazing. There is passion there, a great eye for things that are hypnotic, his use of color is insane. He knows what looks good and I will not debate on his tastes even though they aren't like mine I can respect what he does and I can enjoy what he puts out into the world visually.

What did we learn today about Adam and this situation, avoid him and it’s better to remove people like him out of your life. No matter how nice someone is to you or how talented someone may be. If someone doesn’t respect you they are basically trash and like trash it gets taken out on Tuesday.

My New Favorite Fan!

UnknownFebruary 14, 2014 at 10:51 PM

Between you and any of those porn-bloggers like str8up or thesword, I'll take your word any day of the week. I can't stand the judgmental cattiness of most of them, and when you call them on it they either delete your comment, or claim that they are being 'objective' when all they do is throw shade and pretend they are important. At least you are 100% honest with your posts.

 

 Enough Said! Happy belated Valentines Day.

xoxoox Jed

I Think I'm Turning Japanese!

So my birthday is coming up and I have been busy like a bee. Turning another year older and a little wiser has it benefits. You learn who’s important and who’s not. After talking to my amazing roommate about two funny comments two people messaged, I was like what am I going to write about? I could always write about impact of commas or specialized writing techniques to get your point across but no one that I would hang out with would want to hear about that. As well as it would be boring and take too much time away from ordering the food and planning the games for about 50 people who are attending my birthday.

I have been painting my dining room a few different colors for the big event. As well as shopping at my favorite store (Ryu Japanese Antiques and Decor) to get art work for the apartment (sad the store is closing). Now that most of the painting is done I just need to go order the cake and pick up drinks and store them away till next week. I have some really great people coming to my birthday my agent, my friends, a few of my ex-boyfriends and co-workers etc. There will be games of all sorts mainly card, guessing and video games. I am kind of a big nerd.

My roommate will probably be chasing me around taking pictures of me which I tend to avoid taking pictures of myself. I only really do it when I have a needy person on Grindr needing more or if I am in bed cuddling with someone, I’ll post it on twitter. Twitter is like Facebook for the most part. Don’t know why I was told I needed to have a twitter? Like Facebook, twitter causes so much trouble. People get mad when you are honest and only really ever wants to comment negatively on posts.  Why do we invest so much time on something that can be misinterpreted and makes us more antisocial? People feel less like they need to actually keep to their word and meet up with you if they just can text or tweet or leave a message, people are becoming more inhuman.

So me being not a very out and about social butter fly I tend to stay home and play video games and just nerd out. I kind of miss dating Mark my ex. He didn’t need to go out in the scene he actually avoided it like I do. I have ended a few relationships because they felt the needed to always dress up and go out. I am lazy and I don’t feel the need to stand and model for a bunch of drunk people at a bar. That’s where my theme of my birthday is coming from. Everyone is required to wear a tank top and basketball shorts to my birthday. If I am out, which is very rare, I am always dressed pretty well. Most people think I had been on a date and my response is nope. People don’t know the real couch potatoes that is me.  So I will be playing games and dodging the camera when I can at my party. I think it will be a pretty good time for all. I am ordering pizza and KFC because the inner fat girl inside me, likes to eat both all the time.

So other good news one of my fan who wants to spend a week with me. So for my birthday gift he is flying me first class to Aussie Land. Never been will probably post a few thing about Australia when I am over there. As well as I will be able to see my boy toy from Belgium. Kind of miss him he sends me cute pictures here and there of him and the stuff animal I gave him. I have been adding some pretty cool people into my life and taking some not so amazing people out of it too. I think the saddest one I purged was Andrew Stark I invested a lot of time and energy into him and he couldn’t return the favor. So I have been straightening up my priorities a little bit. Surprisingly I have been hanging out with a lot of straight people. Since most people when they meet me think I am straight. I blend in a little excluding the height issue, because I am 6’3”.

I love living away from West Hollywood. There is less drama and less bullshit where I am now. I can’t stand annoying people that set up websites that nitpick about everyone’s business that they have never met. As well as the scene and people who live and breathe by it. Like they have no life outside the bars. Living outside of West Hollywood is a stress relief and it allows you to look in and laugh. This allows you to point yourself into a direction that you want to go. This is much easier than being around people who will tell no you can’t do it. It is as if they want to suck you into the rut they are stuck in. These are things that I am grateful for and would have not known if I was still caught up with that crap.

Other good notes I’ll be hanging with Jake S, JP R., Marcus and a few other porn boys a few days after my bday in NYC. It’s nice to catch up and even cuddle, maybe a poke here and there. But overall since they do porn they don’t ask you the same questions people outside of porn ask. They get to know you well the real you. Sad that none of my NY peoples will be coming to my bday but I guess I can have a second bday party in NYC. Well till my next post have a good day or night.

"Spiraling"? Hmm.... I do love Milky Ways!

It’s odd that Zach, J.W. Waxner-Herman and Jon (Jame’s brother), never heard of long distance relationships. Why would two of these three people who didn’t have a personal relationship with James (Erik) Think they should comment about his and my relationship (Where would they get the idea they had that kind of insight? )

Jon his twin never met me. Jon wasn’t really ever that involved in James’s life from what I had been told. So how could he comment about me when he never traveled with James to Los Angeles? I never saw him in the hotel room with James at the Hallway Hotel or The Ramada Hotel. Not even when he was in town (Don’t get me wrong two James would have been hot.) As well as it was very interesting not seeing any of the three in my bedroom when he spent the night after he was done with clients?

 If Jon was so involved with James then why would his twin brother not get him help dealing with substance abuse or get him to stop escorting? I find it interesting that he would claim to know so much when he was never there. He doesn’t sound like caring brother to me. But if he had read what I wrote then he could just be trying to save his ass or his family’s ass making them sound better by making me sound like a liar. Nor do I care about his family because when I was with James he didn’t say anything good about them. He actually avoided talking about them in general and I didn’t bring it up because it would upset him. When you are in a relationship and if things upset the person you love you avoid those things that upset them.

As weird or strange as my relationship was with James it still was a relationship. Just because your friend at a different blog gets humiliated and you deicide to go running to his aid. That doesn’t mean what either of you say is worth two cents.  About Str8upgayporn’s writer Zach, he just keeps posting the same thing over and over and over because he has no new material and lacks the talent to make something else up. He is now relaying on his buddies from other sites. Zach gets his ex coworkers/friends to come save him.

 How am I spiraling?  My careers is bigger and better than ever so I guess I am spiraling to the top? Attacking people left and right seems to be this very pathetic tactic to increase your readership; as they attempted it with Michael Lucas. It didn’t work and will never work! People want what they want and regardless of what you say and what they publicly say, Zach and company are behind their computers jacking off to it.

So keep posting nasty and childish drivel. Clearly you are attempting to hurt my career. Good luck with that. You are failing again but thanks for the publicity, my readership just doubled. 

Tattoos are one of my favorite forms of art.

There are many pros and cons to having tattoos. Lets start off with  the cons since its always better to finish on a good note. People who get tattoos and do not keep up  their body when they got the tattoo could encounter morphed distortions of the way the tattoo looks. For example if you're hefty and loose the weight your tattoo might look like a poster on the wall where the tape has let go and it only 50percent visible by the rolls that are now there, since the skin is not longer taught. Also if your tattoos are not well planned out you might look like a fool with just random shit all over your body making no sense, this makes you visually less desirable dated tattoo or cliché is sign that you are not creative. When seen  with cliché tattoo, you might be judged as slightly boring, dumb or uncreative. The wrong sizes of tattoos (little tattoos on large pieces of skin) on you body  look feminine when your a male. This harkens something to the past. Reminiscent of  the 80's and early 90's again two decades that are kind of forgettable (I will say The Spice Girls are still one of my guilty pleasures). Prison tattoo well the common ones that are bland and boring just makes the population clutch there purses or think your going to kill or rape them. So before letting bubba tat you up make sure you get visual references before there's any ink to skin. I can go on but, hell no one like bad body art and most people who have it regret it.

So the pros to getting tattoos. A well placed and thought out tattoo gives you personality and sets you apart from the rest of your peers. Having good ink done makes people look at you like your creative and have a eye for talented people and good art work. People look at good tattoos like people do when they look at masterpieces in museums. The only difference is that you can touch this art if the person will let you. When someone notices a person with good ink and they haven't met or know anything about them they might start to think is this person mysterious and possible has a dirty or adventurous side. Yes having a well worked out body adds to the art itself because the art is only as good as the canvas it is on. With good ink you are allowed to show off your personality and it also gives a view and little insight of what kind of person you are. Tattoos can show off what you are into and things you enjoy. Tattoo allows the wearer to tell people about themselves without even opening their mouths. Good tattoo give character and is an easy conversation starter with completely strangers.

My personal interest in them are I think amazing and hot and they are a huge turn on. There is something makes me think about a rugged man working on your house all sweaty and dirty ripping off his shirt to wipe the sweat off his face. Walks up to you with a raging hard-on one bending you over the kitchen table and using you like a rag doll. Oh the fantasies I have had and will have.

My 8th Scene (Behind the Dildo-labara)

Wow, where to start with this one? Doing a scene with Justin Beal made me feel like Matt Damon. Take a close look at the photos and decide for yourself. Titan really doesn’t tell you who you are working with anymore because if they did you probably would cancel the scene. The list of annoying things I had to deal with onset just went on and on. Justin Beal is not attractive to me, he reminds me of a gay version of Quagmire off of family guy. He had no body to speak of; it was like fucking a 40 year old child with body hair. And he complained about everything.  The crew asked me if I’d bottom in the scene to make it versatile. I lied and said I was not prepared to bottom.  Every morning I clean out it feels good. To feel fresh down there is better than a trip to Whole Foods. The reason why they asked me if I could bottom was because Justin (every 30 seconds) bitched and complained about my dick and I was like “You’ve had bigger, bitch”, why is he complaining? That also went on and on till the end of the shoot.

There weren’t many lines in the scene but I had mine down packed and Justin didn’t understand construction lingo, so we had to keep rewording the script because he wasn’t able to remember the whole conversation. I had worked in construction since I was a kid so I knew how to ad-lib. Talking to Justin is kind of uncomfortable and puts you at an uneasy stance. Wish I could forget I had ever done this scene it was not worth the 700.00 they paid me. But Titan is a cheap ass studio and doesn’t pay shit. The way Paul directs scenes is horrible there is nothing organic and it is completely robotic, which makes the scene tend to be unbear(back)able. I am very happy I went to raw sex (which I like to call Natural Sex) so that they would never ask me to work with them again.

The Truth As I SEE It.

I am writing this post for a few reasons. Most people think celebs even porn actors are something of interest. There really isn't much of a difference. Except movie stars get paid way too much money so they can shit on a heated toilet seat. Everyone has hope dreams, goals and aspirations even porn actors. Porn actors’ lives aren't completely about sex. For the most part we lead our lives just like the rest of the population. We just have less inhibitions about sex. We (not all but most) have maintained a level of attractiveness that is sometimes considered arousing in certain situations. Some of us have issues with self-esteem and our value system where we think getting work done on our faces and butt implants and silicone injections to our cocks is going to make us more of what our followers and fans want. Not all of us but the ones who are so obsessed they leave their business and run off to do porn. They make porn their lives tend to fall apart at the seams. Leaving their friends and there family for new and more disastrous places where people pick you apart and make you worry more about what really doesn't matter and less of what does.

 

I was dating Erik Rhodes when he died. Even though I had told Adam R. at Falcon. He wrote up a statement telling the people he was still dating that half whit Ricardo when he passed. Which was quite upsetting when you read something like that. I wasn't there when he died but I have slowly gotten information here or there and I don't know what is true or what is not. From what I know of his actions this is probably what actually went down. There are rumors that Erik was escorting (which we all know he did and won awards for) and doing a three way with Samuel Colt and there were drugs involved. Erik was taking these kind of drugs when I was dating him HGH, Steroids, Heroine, Meth, G, and a number of different very powerful prescription pills. From my knowledge I was the only one who ever got him to throw drugs away. He tried to shoot up in front of me. Before he pushed the plunger down he turned and looked at me. I had the look of sadness in my face. He looked like a pit-bull puppy and gave me puppy eyes like he knew he did something bad. He said why, do you make me feel so bad about this. My response was you do drug when you are not happy and when you want the pain to go away. Why would you need that with me? I told him I loved him and he didn't need to be anything other than himself with me. This was at the Ramada in West Hollywood. He flushed tons of drugs down the toilet and about 3.5 ounces of meth.

 

 

Erik (James) was a wonderful person sweet and adorable yes even for his giant size. He loved to be the little spoon and be cuddled. He would hold your hand and snuggle after he places your leg up and over his hip making you look like a spider monkey that got attached to him. James had a serious problem with drug spurred on form family problems and from the porn industry. He loved to talk about you trying to avoid talking about himself. He no longer thought people want to know him as James, just Erik a side of him that was so out there that people only knew that part about him. I got to know a side of him very few if anyone knew. He was a big guy before he got into porn but that was still not enough for the industry he could never satisfy them, a lot like how he felt about his family life, which he completely internalized. His two biggest reason for doing drugs was Porn and his Family.

 

People need to know there are soul behind what they fantasize about not just cock or ass starved sex fiends. People tend to only want to talk to porn actors about sex and not what you think outside of porn. The Industry tell you to say nothing but nice things which tend to be lies, to make people like you, but why? It was shown that 80% of all comments left on Facebook are negative! We as a culture love to tear each other down and for what. Hell I have done it a lot. I do it with humorous ways or in frustration because people don't make things easy for each other and revenge sometimes feels so much better in the immediate moment and you don't look at the long term. We as people look at ways of how we can pass on our pain to others. The reason for this is because we don't want to wallow in our own misery alone. Zach the asshole form Str8upgayporn is a perfect example of a miserable person that does this exact thing.

 

Unlike him I give my honest opinion I don't alter other peoples words or thought to make a head line. He doesn't possess that kind of talent that is why his is what he is. I hate Bruno B. with a passion for the shit he put me in and I hate Falcon for allowing a person to continue being a sack of shit and paying him just because they like his husband. Both Bruno and his husband are sick and twisted. Steve and Bruno stated in a tweet last year to look out that they will be hiring ethnic actors first and then the white ones later. Regardless that you write in you submission form saying you are not into certain kinds of guys they will pair you with what you are not attracted too. If you complain or throw a fit they will 86 you and you never work for them again. They put that pressure on you because you don't want to lose a job. So you go along with it, even if you have a problem. So what do you do to rid yourself of the pain? You might take drug or drink or even kill yourself, because you feel trapped?

 

Bruno and Steve since working with Falcon has turned the All American look Studio to basically the condom version of SX Video. Even SX will have a good looking guy here and there but its more of a fluke.  Even though most of their customers want to see white guys they are bound and determined to run that studio even farther into the ground, offering the opposite. They aren't scolded because the parent company can throw cash left and right saving their asses. Even the awards are a huge joke because they aren't based on sales it based on blogs and most of the blogs are run by their friends.  So talentless people will win awards because they either have fucked a blogger or are/have slept with the director/s to get more attention.

This is a sick continuous cycle will go on and on. The funny thing is the public doesn't have a clue. For example Hookie Award winner Tate Ryder didn't win MR. Los Angeles because he was the most popular he won because of Chi-Chi gave it to him. He gave it to him because he was going to be working with him in FL on set. Nothing is fair in this industry actor’s use to make a killing and tons of money. Not anymore and that sad. Because anyone with a camera can do porn. Doesn't matter if they are attractive or not. Quality is no longer important. We as a society want quantity and we have no problem throwing anything and everything away for the newest thing. I know of several porn boys who have taken their lives because they were thrown away. They were promised things and molded into what they were told to be and then tossed aside when they were finished with them. It is this kind of bull shit that makes porn actors (that don’t brown nose) not trust anyone.

 

Porn actors are not superheroes. Most tops can’t keep it up so they inject their dicks with Tri-mix or use Viagra. Most the time scenes are awful and very few are good. You get paired with annoying people and sometimes with amazing people. Porn is not glamorous it’s actually kind of tragic. No one really wants to talk about the truth and when you do you get bashed for it or swept under the rug. People are horrible at their best for the most part in the industry. To name a few amazing people I got to work that you don't see in the video that are behind the camera are Adam Killian, Jake Steele, Chris Crisco, Rusty Ford, Brian Mills, and Jasun Marks. People that you are happy to see when you’re on set because they make you laugh or take care of you when you are upset or just need a hug.

 

Porn actors aren't perfect And they don't claim to be, some actually think they are god’s gift to mankind of but they tend to be miserable people. I am not perfect I have emotions and problems just like the rest of the human race. I just don't handle my issues like everyone else. Where they just accept that life is shit and go on with their lives. I fight back with words because I don't settle for being abused like the rest of the world has become accustom to. I am not heartless but I am one huge ass hole when you cross me. I don't have a filter nor do I want one. So people can’t confuse the passion or the pain in what I feel or say. I have a right to think unobstructed by whomever wants to control an outcome they can go fuck themselves. I am not a CLONE I will not conform to what I have been told to conform to. It’s not in my nature. I have lost loved ones from the fact they weren't strong enough to just say no, to drug and other people wills.

 

So asshole like the writer from Manhunt Daily, Str8upgayporn and their gaggle of lonely miserable followers can kiss my ass. You may write shit about me and I will state this again, you are faceless and you are nobodies. I have a face and a voice and when you’re long gone and sitting on the patio of the Mongoliod-convalescent wing and your shitty comments will be gone too, people will know who I am and there will be proof that lives on that defies your articles and pisses on you work and lack of work in some cases. Instead of being like herpes on the face of the earth, why not work with the people, instead you like to tear them apart. Get the answer or interviews from the actors themselves and not fabricate lies and crap stories up to get yourselves attention. Truth rings much stronger than fabricated lies. Things might change and make life easier and less of a headache for the ones you so stalk form studio to studio.